Kickin' it

So the Ames kicked me around the studio again today. I almost cried - it just feels so insurmountable. But now I'm home and I can barely lift my arms to the keyboard - a sign that I did something today.

I'm finding myself swirling above the drain of despair again these days. Part of me just doesn't want to fight it anymore. It's just so draining to fight for the will to be.

Fr. Jonah will be here in three weeks. I know I will be enriched with his visit - even if it's just getting to hear that beautiful laugh of his. I so experience God in Fr. Jonah's life and I can't wait for another dose.