Growling

I tend to find that when I get grouchy and irritable for no reasonable reason, that I am in some sort of physical pain that I have been ignoring. I'm in pain frequently and I often ignore it. I don't know why.

This week has been challenging, to type the least. Credit card fraud, dental work, dental bill in the stratosphere, grandmother dying, work imbalanced, no rhythm to life, etc.

I'm discovering that grieving my grandmother's mental and physical decline over the past year and a half has not reduced the amount of grief at the time of her impending death. Grief does not accrue on account. It will be relieved sorrow when she passes, as her condition now is so heartbreakingly sad. I really really don't want to get dementia.

My Nun comes home in two weeks. I pray we can match schedules though I know her family takes precedence.

I'm too tired to cry anymore this week.