Struggling with ... not so much

Every time I feel like a super duper repentant Orthodox Christian, I find myself struggling to find a mountaintop from which to scream my newly re-found piety. I can't just let some thing be between me and God or vice versa. I need publicity and commendation and assurances that others value my alleged piety. Gah.

I've been reading about Dorothy Day for one of my classes and struggling with the issues of canonization, cult of personality, and the like. What is it about those of us who look to those like her that we don't simply emulate their kind? Why are people putting her image on candles and writing books and nodding in agreement with her but not getting their hands dirty? How am I going to rise up to her example of poverty, solidarity with the poor, and living out the gospel of peacemaking? It's easy for me to say that I don't have to, what with not being Catholic and all, but then what is my response for not following in Mother Kassiene's footsteps of just one hundred years ago in Serbia? What about St. Xenia the wanderer from St. Petersburg? What about the call of Christ to sell all I have and follow him? How much do I get to ignore it and still call myself Christian (other issues aside)? Gah deux.

Kyrie eleison.

keep on walking now