It's a whole new (my) world
So much has happened in the last fourteen months. Death came calling for several loved ones, new life came for friends as well as my brother and his (new) wife, the entire family dynamic changed quickly, I said goodbye to the Dyls and hello to Lug, most of my friendships seem to be quieting down, I graduated from skool, my job changed significantly, I went to Ecuador, I came back from Ecuador with a broken heart, and I've begun to take care of myself and am working on finding my voice.
I said goodbye to Charlotte, Orv, Julian, and Monica last summer. We mourned Michaela's loss on campus - and though I didn't know her, her loss was tangible. Monica's death broke my heart.
I met Joey T-H and fell quite in love with the wee one - though he's never really been wee, having debuted at over 11#. On that same day, my brother married his love. In April, my sister in law gave birth to Noah, my lovely little smoosh.
On March 12, I walked out of the classroom for the very last time. The long, ugly road was finally at its end for me. I did well in my classes, but I learned more about my values and goals than anything else and I'm beginning to embrace the courage to stick to those values, even when others vocally disagree.
In winter quarter, my boss was gone. I became part of the interim leadership team and my experience of work has changed dramatically. I have much more confidence and feel as if I'm a significant part of the team. It's a weird experience, since the former boss was very supportive and always tried to empower and support me - but the result was for me to feel isolated and suffocated. She's a good person in many ways and I wish I could have experienced a more healthy side of her.
Dyls died at the end of March. I didn't get to give her any official goodbye loves, but I had seen her a few days before the end. I love that dog so much and will never forget how fun she was to flop around with for lo these many years. A month or so later, Lug came on the scene. He is perhaps the third most delightful dog I have ever known. A bloodhound mutt, he may seem large by our standards but in reality he is a kitten sized pup who can fit on any lap for a snuggle. And by fit, I mean overwhelm. I love him.
The rest of the info is going to have to wait. Ecuador, the return from Ecuador, and self care are a bit daunting right now. Suffice it to say that I had a therapy appointment today (first ever!) and I am hopeful. I'm never hopeful. I'll be broke soon, but that's okay.
I said goodbye to Charlotte, Orv, Julian, and Monica last summer. We mourned Michaela's loss on campus - and though I didn't know her, her loss was tangible. Monica's death broke my heart.
I met Joey T-H and fell quite in love with the wee one - though he's never really been wee, having debuted at over 11#. On that same day, my brother married his love. In April, my sister in law gave birth to Noah, my lovely little smoosh.
On March 12, I walked out of the classroom for the very last time. The long, ugly road was finally at its end for me. I did well in my classes, but I learned more about my values and goals than anything else and I'm beginning to embrace the courage to stick to those values, even when others vocally disagree.
In winter quarter, my boss was gone. I became part of the interim leadership team and my experience of work has changed dramatically. I have much more confidence and feel as if I'm a significant part of the team. It's a weird experience, since the former boss was very supportive and always tried to empower and support me - but the result was for me to feel isolated and suffocated. She's a good person in many ways and I wish I could have experienced a more healthy side of her.
Dyls died at the end of March. I didn't get to give her any official goodbye loves, but I had seen her a few days before the end. I love that dog so much and will never forget how fun she was to flop around with for lo these many years. A month or so later, Lug came on the scene. He is perhaps the third most delightful dog I have ever known. A bloodhound mutt, he may seem large by our standards but in reality he is a kitten sized pup who can fit on any lap for a snuggle. And by fit, I mean overwhelm. I love him.
The rest of the info is going to have to wait. Ecuador, the return from Ecuador, and self care are a bit daunting right now. Suffice it to say that I had a therapy appointment today (first ever!) and I am hopeful. I'm never hopeful. I'll be broke soon, but that's okay.
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