loss

I turned on some Jerry this afternoon for the first time in a bit of a while and as I found myself melding back into the vibe of the music, my heart felt a strong pang for DB. I miss him.

One of my sweetest ever memories was when he took me out of the office to the cop car and played me the song that became mine. Never before and never since have the spontaneous words of someone else made such a deep impact. I still have the tape, I still listen to it, I still cherish it.

So much confusion, so much wondering, so much unknown right now.

wind in the willows playin' tea for two

zoinks! 

uh oh

Something is in the works. It's 37 minutes until Alias and all three beloveds of the feline persuasion are sacked out. Likely storing up their energy to waken at 8:58 and begin their workouts, including demanding my attention. Attention that from 9-10, I won't have to share. Though we all know who wins when they want something. Ugh!

They are so cute. This week has not been peaceful and I am grateful for the comfort and joy the little bugs dole out. They have no idea how precious they are. I love being easily amused.

takin' it all the way

today

All it did was rain. Glorious rain falling all around. Peaceful, rejuvenating, comforting. It brings me life. I opened the windows to better hear the sound of water falling on rooftops, through tree limbs, onto cars and gravel.

I will remember this day in August. I promise.

the world is turning

blarg

A swollen eyelid, a loose (temporary) crown and swollen gums around it, insomnia, memory loss, a cut on the palm of my left hand.

No these are not some of my favorite things though they are challenges I'm facing this week. I'm fairly certain the insomnia is the worst, as the lack of sleep has made me a forgetful zombie but the eyelid and the toothaches are catching up. To boot, 2.5 hours of droning lecture lie ahead.

In all things, give thanks. Huzzah, a lesson!

oooohhhh.... a challenge

Resolve to start using capitals when appropriate.

But that's not the point. Eric said that his resolution is to equal every dollar he spends on cds by donating the same or greater amount to charity. And I got to thinking, what a mighty fine idea! Brilliant, even, in its simplicity. Detachment not being my specialty, this would be a likely successful way to deter mindless consumerism while benefitting the community when I really do want something.

I'd like to say I'd do it with books (texts excepted) but not sure I can commit to that right now. Maybe a lenten exercise.

So further resolution: what he said! Each cd or dvd gets a matching donation amount to a charitable organization. Prolly will tally it up at the end of each month or two (I don't buy all that many though binging has been a problem) and make a donation.

This will be cool. I'll have to come up with some more than the standards for recipients.

She'll be a very lucky gal who lands herself the eric!

ahh... the new year

resolutions being the bane of so many's existence. not sure if i should make any but at the same time feeling more tranquil (t-j!) and ready for a change.

at any rate, my goals for the month honoring the greek god of beginnings are as follows:
quit the smoke of the terbacky variety

weed out lacto and ovo in the homestead

accept compliments with gratitude, even if blushing

3x week on bike for 15 minutes, increasing 5 mins per session per week

don't think i'm constantly hated, despite all tendencies

honesty with the docs

while i don't know about going full on vegan, there is no reason for me not to do so within my home world. i've known that for a long time but the blasted addiction to cheese has thus far given me cause to resist such a change. with la bonita on board, i think it's the right time to transition.

i'm starting my class on the eighteenth. must commit to that therapeutic regimine for survival.

optimism being a potential noose, i look forward to changing this year.

with no guilt, no shame, no sorrow or pain...